By now if you have been following my work you know that I have been on a journey for quite some time specifically with relation to the whole "change your thoughts," "change your life" theme.
In what I will call my first cycle, I became consciously aware of my thoughts and the corresponding emotions that went along with those thoughts. And therefore started to learn how to master(so-to-speak), being able to change my thoughts in order to receive a different correlating emotional response, and therefore different actions and outcomes as well.
I explain this process in my first book: When You've Tried Everything Else Except Yourself: 6 Steps To Move Beyond Your Past Experiences And Programs And "Step Into Your Own."
As I continue on this journey I am led to a new understanding. This definitely corresponds with a quote I came up with that still holds true today,
"You only know what you know, until you know something else." Lisa
What I know more than ever is that you and I are not our thoughts. The short and simple of it is that if we were our thoughts you would not be able to change them, and therefore experience other "life-changing" perspectives.
My most recent discovery has to do with the storylines you and I are playing day in and day out, 365. Storylines are strung together thoughts with correlating emotional responses. You and I are no more our storylines than we are our thoughts. They are the same thing.
I was meditating last night and came upon a thought process that was playing itself out in my mind having to do with the storyline of the underdog that I have played in my life.
As I observed the process with no emotional attachment(as an observer outside of the process looking in), I realize that so many of my life's decisions have been played from this role. The role of the what I am calling the underdog.
Yes it goes back to my parents!
I had been desiring for them to see me as they have always seen me. As their "little girl." I had not wanted to move from this role because there are some areas I believed they would be disappointed about.
Upon further observation this has to do with the love and acceptance of a parent to a child.
Believe me I know!
Nobody wants to discuss the hurt or the pain that comes with knowing or revisiting certain realizations. But believe it or not, this is yet another storyline. A form of protecting the self-image program.
And although the storyline feels true simply by virtue of how long it's been playing and the emotional responses, decisions and actions that go along with it, I realize it is simply a storyline.
I look forward to further observations as this and the many storylines of life unfold.
Stay tuned for further writings.