Over the years I thought something was wrong with me regarding my energy or lack there of at various times.
I even discussed it with, and had tests run by two of my doctors who found nothing as related to why my energy being so off.
Because I didn't understand it, knew it was happening and felt like it was completely out of my control, there's times I would cry. I would cry to my husband because I felt so overwhelmed. Bless his heart. He would listen and try to understand what I was going through. I even burst out in tears in one of the doctor's offices. This is when I knew I felt out of control.
The only thing I was left to do was to try to manage it by paying attention to my energetic patterns.
“Your physical energy is also subject to cycles. It cannot always be at a peak. There will be times of low as well as high energy.” ”Many illnesses are created through fighting against the cycles of low energy, which are vital for regeneration.” Eckhart Tolle
I came to an understanding that when I wake up around 6:30am, and dependent on when I went to bed, I usually feel refreshed - at around 2pm I'd notice my energy shifting to what I'll call a lower plateau but sustainable. And by 7pm, I'm done! As in I could go to bed, done!
The Impact Of My Presence On Social Media Again, for years I couldn't understand why I'd have these spurts of energy as related to social media where I felt I could be on/contribute for days and then I simply couldn't. One year I even tried explaining that if you're following me on my Facebook page and you see me disappear I'm still here but cannot force myself to create content when my body is telling me to rest.
I forged on year after year trying to be like everybody else, to try to show up daily and consistently but simply couldn't.
It turns out that part of why this was happening was for two reasons - 1. I never felt comfortable trying to force anything because my messages come from inspiration and downloads, Period. 2. I never believed I needed to do things the way everybody else was doing it - even marketing and advertising or showing up in the way everyone else is being/has been trained to do so. It's only recently that I'm resting in this knowing on levels like I never have before.
Seek And You Shall Find
I don't remember exactly what brought me to Human Design but I do remember initially being resistant to even wanting to understand what it was all about.
But I noticed that Human Design kept coming into my energetic space in one way or another until I simply couldn't ignore it. I decided to approach it with curiosity instead of any preconceived ideas. And Boy! Am I glad I did!
What is Human Design, Briefly
Human design is a self-exploration system that combines ancient and modern beliefs. Human design draws on traditions like the I-Ching, the kabbalah, the chakra system, and astrology to help you understand what makes you unique. Who Discovered Human Design It was originated by Alan Robert Krakower who published a book called The Human Design System under the pseudonym Ra Uru Hu in 1992. Krakower developed the Human Design system following a mystical experience in 1987. I know! I know! Sounds a bit woo woo. However because I decided to approach with curiosity instead of judgement I've been transforming because of this incredible system. And it's up to every individual to experiment with it and decide if it's credible for themselves. I already know it is. Anywho, and without getting too heavy into Human Design terms I'll simply focus on my particular Human Design Type: The Projector.
According to Human Design Projectors make up about 20% of the world's energy types while other energy types: Reflector, Manifesting Generator and Generators make up the other 80%.
Projectors specifically are considered non-energy types. When I first saw this explanation of course I was floored!
The Human Design body graph, which you will see once you go to mybodygraph.com and put in the necessary information, will show you lots of stuff to have you scratching your head. Don't worry. If interested enough you will find out any and everything you need to know.
It is said however that if you just spend time experimenting with what you find your Strategy and Authority to be, this all by itself is life transforming. And for myself, it's true!
Once you see your body graph you'll notice 9 centers which will either be filled in with a color or not. I have 2 centers filled in.
But here's what's real interesting. That area just above the filled in brown area(the root chakra) which is called the sacral center(responsible for life force energy) is NOT filled in which means me and no other Projector have the ongoing energy reserves like other energy types, to keep going and going like this world has conditioned us to believe we need to.
And because of this conditioning you may have considered yourself or others may have considered you lazy, flighty, inconsistent and whatever other labels may have been assigned.
I'll list a couple of things written about the Projector energy type that you definitely want to know. "As a projector, because of our inconsistent energies, we need to often find moments for us to rest and recharge ourselves. Let rest be your love language. Allocate regular breaks during the day, disengage from people/noise/conversations and let go of the idea of doing often." "Projector's are “non-energy” Types. Meaning they are not here to be the workers like Generators who can do things over and over again. This is why they need to study and be informed, so they can guide and be intelligent with energy usage." "The Projector personality type is the teachers and guides of this world. They are here to be successful, in their own way. They make up approximately 20% of the population. The strategy of a projector is to wait to be invited before they share their knowledge with others or to engage in opportunities." Do ya'll see what I'm getting at? Projectors like myself need to Allocate regular breaks during the day, disengage from people/noise/conversations and let go of the idea of doing often. Finding this out about myself - and not only finding out but learning that it's an act of love toward myself to accept and honor who I BE has been transformational for me. What Am I Doing Now That I Didn't Do Then...
I think it's important that I address the subtle energies of not accepting yourself or believing that something is wrong with you because your body, energy, thoughts, etc., are not like everybody else. This creates an incessant internal conflict that no one outside of yourself can ever really know. As I'm continuing to notice the areas where I've fought myself like I was my own enemy, I allow myself to pay attention to what my body is telling me, what it's always been telling me. -I take naps more readily and don't have any guilt trips about it. -I find less of a need to say anything before being invited to do so.
-I stay off social media a lot more and I'm allowing myself to place messages I have to offer when and where my body/heart resonate to place it-where my energy is best valued. -I'm going kicking and screaming a lot less, into understanding what my body wants to digest as food energy has a generous impact on Projectors as well. -I am in the process of revamping everything in my life and business to reflect and ONLY be in alignment with who I BE as a Projector. It's going to take time but I'm resting into it. -I'm allowing others in my family to BE who they BE energetically and learning not to fight against it as I may have. -My working schedule reflects my energy cycles. -I say no when my body is telling me, no. There's probably a lot more but I'll stop here.
Me,
I'm Lisa Scott. And for now it doesn't resonate with me to put a bunch of credentials behind my name. The only thing that matters is that if you were looking for answers as to why your energy may be off, you have possibly found the answer in this blog post. I certainly welcome your comments and questions as it's a great pleasure of mine(with my energy signature carrying a line of 1 which means Investigator) to probe what's going on. And of course, because my blog post isn't a Decondition Your Unconscious Programs & Beliefs, For Projectors session here's where you can look into what the session is about further and decide if you'd like to schedule. https://bit.ly/3VwoDFl